Thursday, April 14, 2011

Moving Day

The time has finally come. I have officially out grown this blog and am moving to a more suitable space. I thought about just overhauling this place, but that doesn't feel right. I won't delete it either. That feels too much like deleting my past. Instead, I'm moving to Peeking Through Clouds. I hope it can be a peaceful place where I can express whatever I need whenever I need it. I find my world view is so much bigger than it was when I started this blog that I really need a diverse place to express myself. I hope that there will still be lots of yarn and music on it, but I have other stories to tell now. I hope you'll check it out.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Defying Gravity

I know, I know. It's a terrible cliche, but since I first heard the cast recording of Wicked, I strongly identified with Elphaba. Sometimes it seems that no matter how good you try to be, you can't catch a break. At some point, you have to make the conscious decision that no matter what the universe throws at you, it will not drag you down.

I remember clearly the moment that I made that decision. I was in high school. The decision that I made was that no one would hurt me again. I've learned two things since then. One is that the hurt I was feeling then was like a paper cut compared to the hurt I have experienced over the last year. The second is that people are going to hurt you and there is nothing you can do about it. What you can do is decide whether or not you're going to let them destroy you.

My 34th birthday was just a few days ago. It was a great day. I felt like I had finally turned a corner. I woke up feeling rested. Mike and I were getting along really well. I had a day full of great plans. Mike had gotten me a luxurious spa package and reservations at a lovely Italian restaurant. I also had an appointment with my OB to, hopefully, get the approval to get pregnant again. Although that conversation didn't go exactly as we had hoped, within 24 hours we got the answer we were hoping for. I am cleared to have another baby!

I have no illusions about how hard another pregnancy will be. I am a natural worrier, but I think the combination of hormones and my hard earned knowledge about how badly a perfectly normal pregnancy can end will make things that much worse. Still, I'll keep that promise I made to myself so many years ago and not allow the worry to eat me up.

I'm not pregnant yet even though my mother keeps asking. So, I think I'll post some pictures of that knitting content I keep promising. I went to Knitters Connection in Columbus, Ohio back in June. I took a spinning class with Amy Tyler and a photography class with the one and only Franklin. Both teachers were lovely. I especially learned a lot about the camera I've had for over ten years. (About time, right?) Oddly enough, I didn't actually get a lot of knitting done during that weekend. Here is some evidence that I still knit and actually do own a spinning wheel:


"Jewel" Colonial, second bobbin

Pi Shawl

Pi Shawl



Friday, July 23, 2010

Meet Milo

Well, Mike and I have completely lost it. Last night we brought home a 9 week old Australian Shepherd. Meet Milo:

Milo is literally Moxie's little brother. They both have the same parents. We went up to New Paris, Indiana last night to meet him. Moxie went with us and was very helpful in deciding which puppy to bring home.

So far, things are going really well. Moxie and Milo are currently under my chair sound asleep. They are playing very well together which is what we had hoped for. Mike and I felt that Moxie needed some company besides the cats while we are at work. They do a nice job of wearing each other out. I look forward to watching them grow up together.

I wish I had other news for you, but we're still waiting for the official okay from my doctors to try for another baby. I have an appointment in a few weeks and I feel very hopeful. I been eating well, exercising, and continuing to do Weight Watchers. I have lost 25 lbs since March! I'm not where I want to ultimately be, but I also don't want to wait much longer to have a baby. I'll be 34 this summer and will be treated as a high risk pregnancy anyway. That's all fine. I just don't want "Advanced Maternal Age" added to my list of risk factors. It's just silly.

Speaking of eating well, I do believe it's time for dinner. We got our Farm Fresh Delivery order this week, so we've been eating very well. Tonight we'll be having grilled chicken with zucchini fries and another side dish that I have not decided upon yet. If you have a service in your area like this one, I highly recommend it. It's been one of the best decisions we've made. Not only are we getting organic and/or locally grown produce, but it saves us a trip to the grocery store and we are supporting a local business in addition to all of the local farms that provide the produce. It's a good feeling all around!